creative upwellings...
so this personal blog was up for renewal just recently and I was going to let it just fade away, in fact it did. it was suspended because I didn't update my credit card info. but within a few days of that happening, all of the sudden I wanted to blog again (seriously, not like on my MySpace page).
blogging for me has been very therapeutic. i started my blog when i first moved away from American, all those years ago. and it really helped me get through some tough times. just when i couldn't feel more alone or far away from everyone that i loved, i would get a comment from someone back home and it immediately made me feel better. it let me know that i could go on to experience all that i had hoped for and i did most everything I set out to do.
for the past year, my life has been so upside down, so topsy turvy that i haven't been able to make heads or tails of anything. i returned from china to travel back and forth to indonesia for months while living in my best friend's guest room. i moved to Arizona and two weeks later I was full time on the road between cleveland, chicago, jersey and indiana for many, many months of work. my vacations, already planned and paid for, took me to mexico and costa rica. my holidays were a whirlwind driving marathon to san diego then vegas and back to phoenix. i've not had a moments rest until about a month ago.
instead of coming home to phoenix for my weekend off from work, i escaped to Moab. a mental and physical retreat, away from all the stresses in my life - work, home, family, friends, the guy i was dating - all of it! i had two days of true unadulterated, solitudinous days of ME time. i really had time to think and to NOT think, just be. i came to a lot of conclusions during that trip and just needed right timing to act upon them.
so now the time has come. i'm making plans and getting ready to go forward. again.
some things haven't worked out as i wished but i'm dealing with that reality. but i am continuing on the path that i feel i need to go down. and part of that is my blogging.
so I will keep this original blog, AboutJane, as the on-going sage about the trials and tribulations of this single woman, the world over. yes, my incessant whining about how awful it truly is to be single (now at 40!). it will still contain lots of horoscopes and other non-sense that i find that keeps me hopeful that someday i will fall madly in love with the right man and he with me. that i will actually, willingly, settle down in one spot, marry and start my family. (pathetic, I know but my friends will still love me any way)
but i will add to my repertoire two more blogs:
only a reflection an ideal that came to me back in Feb 2005 but abandoned rather quickly. i wanted to explore my PhotoShop abilities in combination with the massive amounts of photos i've taken. this blog will probably get the least amount of attention, especially if I am forced to do more traveling during the remainder of the year.
and then there will be
Miss Anthropy resultant of my recent Moab trip and the accidental acquisition of a profound book. this blog will be entirely dedicated to and about Edward Abbey's Desert Solitaire and what impact it is having on my life.
i picked it up in the Arches gift shop and I say accidently because i had already brought four books with me on the trip and i ended up buying two more, this being one of them. I started reading it immediately while enjoying my simple but tasty dinners that I prepared in the well equipped kitchen of the Lazy Lizard hostel. I was as voracious a reader as i ever have been (did i mention i read rather slowly) but with the physical exhaustion setting in as early as 9 pm each evening and my hikes starting immediately after breakfast and lasting until dinner, i continue to read it. i am just about finished and will be starting it over again as i blog (with that knowledge, it prevents me from continuously going back and re-reading parts of it now).
So, now that I have explained all of that, only the execution remains. additional time will be needed to revamp each of the blogs and come up with thoughtful designs that further express where i'm at in these creative endeavors.
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as well. Your mind is on serious concerns, and although you are not
likely to feel depressed or to have other negative feelings, you are not
lighthearted or attracted to frivolity either. In this mood you can be
either a teacher or one who is taught, perhaps in a formal classroom
situation or just in an informal discussion among friends. You respect
people who have more experience than you do, and you are likely to
turn to them for advice. Or someone else may cast you in this role and
come to you for help.
